Organicism

Organicism

Any organization of people is an organicism, structured or unstructured. Any night club, any redneck bar, any fraternal group is usually made up of people attracted to one another by their own interests. This writer calls those who are "regulars" at the local pub or watering hole, a new form of tribalism. There is a psychological attraction existing between them which even they could not explain. Why does one join the local moose lodge, the rotary club, the country club? There is not usually a familial or cultural reason for the attraction of those in these groups. There is a need of some sort, and it might come with a price of induction. A membership for the world's most expensive country club, The Yellowstone Club, is said to cost a minimum of $250,000 to join, plus the cost of a $5 million to $35 million mountainside home, plus annual dues of about $20,000. The Bohemian Club in California to which most politicians and power brokers of this country belong, costs 25,000 to join and 5,000 every year after that.

For the elitist of America, it starts in college with fraternities, such as Skull and Bones (initiation fee of 15,000) and other Greek letter fraternities, sororities, etc. A brotherhood and sisterhood which transcends our intellectual capacity to understand how and why certain human individuals put themselves on a separated plain from the rest of us. All these groups are structured, following rules of conduct, practices, organicism of body politic procedures.

The world's oldest fraternal organicism, The Masons, feel they are a special force for good. (Children's hospitals, etc.) The Rotarians actually believe that "service is above self." The U.S government requires that you, as a citizen, obey laws and pay a certain amount of your income for membership in the Democratic Republic way of life. We stand on the shoulders of our nation's patriots, recognizing the good done by fraternal and social clubs, but, no matter how much you have given in treasure, time, or talent to these man made organicisms, there is not one of these powerful groups to which you have paid so much money, that can save one freckle on your face. Far beyond the realm of the practical, conjoviality, even congenital, pleasures and pluses of earthly memberships, none rise to the scrutiny of spiritual quest. As Thomas Aquanis said, man searches to fill the hole in the human heart. Buddha preached his experience, Muhammad preached a vision, the Christian has reached a relationship with God through Jesus Christ. This Christian is the stranger and pilgrim in this world, his citizenship is in Heaven (Phippians 3:20). The Christian knows that 1/10 of treasure belongs to God, whether he gives it or not. He knows that 1/7 of his time belongs to God whether he gives it or not.

The questioned is asked, "Why can't a rich man enter Heaven?" It is easy for a rich man to join The Yellowstone Country Club. "And again I say unto you, It's easier for a camel to go through the eye a needle than a rich man to enter into the Kingdom of God"(Matt 19:24). Even Jesus spoke lovingly of the widow who gave her mite. (Mark 12:44) She gave for her need, not her abundance. The children of Israel obeyed giving in the wilderness, where God kept them for 40 years to humble them. They must have been lined up all day, outside the tabernacle, giving the choice-unblemished of their flock. They forgot giving in the promise land of milk and honey.

The tithe is more than 10% it is easier for a poverty stricken poor person to give the tithe. The real test comes with the rich, I mean the real rich. There are thousands of millionaires and billionaires in America. The tithe of a million dollars is a lot of money, particularly going into the store house. A diamond must have all the distinguishing marks. God wants the heart of the cheerful giver. I believe God wants the good sense of the cheerful giver. I believe God expects the cheerful giver to be careful where he gives God's money. It may not be Bible, it is between me and God, but I have made it a practice not to give to any place where the organicism powerbrokers live better than I do. God knows my frugality in what I eat, wear, and my habits. Simply because a pastor must put on a big front for his congregation, the head of the denomination must put on a big front for fellow denominations, the President of the United States lives like a potentate, does not mean I should give and pay to satisfy their excesses. I serve a resurrected savior to whom I am responsible for what is left for me to use, as well as what I give to Him and what I am forced to pay to my country. Almighty God has saved my soul, everything I have or ever hope to have, belongs to him.

The Rented Mule

Rented Mule

What God Had Promised:

"God has not promised/Skies always blue, Flower-strewn pathways/All our lives thro’;
God has not promised/Sun without rain, Joy without sorrow,
Peace without pain.

God has not promised/We shall not know/Toil and temptation,/Trouble and woe; He has not told us/We shall not bear/Many a burden,/Many a care.

But God has promised/Strength for the day, Rest for the laborer, Light for the way, Grace for the trials, Help from above, Unfailing sympathy, Undying love."

-Annie Johnson Flint

This writer was raised on the farm when there was little mechanization. The farmers farm size was known for the number of mules it took to keep the land under cultivation. The few old tractors (before the time of tires for farm equipment) tractor wheels with spikes. Often in season, grass growing, many hired "hands" needed for plowing, extra mules would be rented. The farmer did not treat the rented mules as well as he did his own mules on which he must depend, year round. On my father's farm, it would have been hard to distinguish sons from the hired field hands. My father's sons were expected to be the pace setters but the sons always knew who they were and thrived in the knowledge that every promise given to them by who they are..it was their father's house, their father's land. The hired hands like the rented mules, were just there on a temporary basis.

Why, in this life, would anyone chose to live as a hireling instead of their father's son? Even the world's first civilization, before the great flood, the door to Noah's arc of salvation was left open for several days but there is no record that anyone entered that door to be saved along with Noah and his family and the animals which God had loaded into the arc. There is no record, although he walked and talked with God that the disciple Judas was ever saved. The plan so simple, logos, the word, God, spoke and the world was formed. "Faith comes from hearing and hearing from the Word of God" (Romans 10:17). "The Word was made flesh and dwelt among us" (John 1:14). Man is a spiritual being with human needs, not a human being with spiritual needs. It is through the supernatural sovereignty of God that the righteousness of Christ possess us through the Word. We become indwelled as a temple of God, his church. The building on the corner is just that, a building, where churches/temples meet. Many things can be best done for God as an individual. "One man plus God and most things are possible" but often, God's work is a group activity. A group of people committed-devoted, spirit filled, chosen-elected-separated, many do not understand the importance of separation. The hireling from the saved.( John 10:13). The hireling-rented mule does not know the awesome blessedness of being separated-chosen. "Wherefore come out from among them, and be ye separate, saith the Lord, and touch not the unclean [thing]; and I will receive you" (2 Cor 6:19). Separation, is a large part of the New Testament church. "As they ministered to the Lord, and fasted, the Holy Ghost said, Separate me Barnabas and Paul for the work whereunto I have called them" (Acts 13:2). Both believers and non believers recognize separation.

It took me a long time to realize that a little faith is better than no faith. Even Jesus said, "For he that is not against us is on our part. For whosoever shall give you a cup of water to drink in my name, because ye belong to Christ, verily I say unto you, he shall not lose his reward" (Mark 4:40-41).

The apostle Paul did not fall in love with prisons, beatings, shipwrecks. It took me a long time to realize the real significance of his words. "I bear in my body the marks of the Lord Jesus (Gal 6:17). Paul, like every Christian, knew that God had vengeance for those responsible for the marks. Like treatment of a rented mule, ill treatment of any animal, ill treatment of any child or adult, God knows the record.

Watkins Man

Watkins Man

In one of the world's largest cathedrals, a large stained glass window, centerpiece, Jesus. The artist had all the pre cut glass colors assembled on the floor of the cathedral. Slowly, each piece of glass was assembled. At the end, beautiful, yet not quite perfect, something was missing, and then he thought, the smallest piece of glass, which he carefully inserted into the eye of our blessed Lord. The piece of glass which gave an unmistakable gleam to the eye of Jesus. It was always the eyes of Jesus that made the difference. The eye is always the window of the soul. Not seeing the eye of a person is perhaps the greatest robbery of the blind. Always, without fail, the non-betrayal of the eyes. This blind writer new that he could always determine the sincerity of anyone by reading there eyes.

Not just me, but I watched the eye sincerity of other people...the sincerity of others with my parents.

No greater example of this than the Watkins man who came by our house every few months. (Watkins products since 1868, men first with horse and wagons then individual men traveling the countryside in their automobiles, filled with Watkins products which they sold and made a living from commission.) I still remember Mr. Canady, the Watkins man, just as I remember Mr. Forehand, the fish man who came by in his truck each Friday. These men enjoyed the America tradition of free enterprise, individual capitalism, built on the time warn system of trust. You could see the trust shown in the eyes of both my father and the Watkins man. My father purchased exterminating things, "fly spray." My mother purchased vanilla extract and other spices for the kitchen. This was before the time of big farmer, Wal-Mart with their cheap Chinese rip-off's. In the truest sense of the American spirit, free enterprise, entrepreneurship, helping one another make a living.

One of the first things I was told in traveling to big cities, particularly, New York City, you avoid eye contact. Can one even imagine our blessed Lord's eyes not coming into contact with those he healed? Think of his disappointment with the nine lepers. (Leprosy like today's, HIV/Aids-incurable.) Does one even comprehend, "incurable outcasts"-human beings not allowed to even come in contact with the healthy, even members of their own family? Must always shout to oncoming fellow human beings, "unclean." As they turned to go to the priest at the instruction of Jesus, looking at one another, found that they had been healed. But, only one returned to thank him. Such a difference, the lepers had eyesight. Bartimaeus, outside the city of Jericho, was totally blind. Jericho, a fortress city of paganism whose walls had fallen. (Hebrews 11:30) Bartimaeus, refusing to be silent, threw off his cloak and persisted with Jesus. (Mark 10:46-52) He received his sight, praising, followed Him. Nothing surprises God. But, even today, human beings are besmirched by the lackadaisical attitude of one towards another..eyes or no eyes.

I have never known a professional office to employ a blind person. (Perhaps in a back room, doing some typing, etc.) Those dealing with the public are usually sighted, can well see the distress and despair of those seeking help...doctor's office, dentist office, lawyers office, magistrates office, etc. When you give a professional office the honor and respect of asking for an appointment there, when you have given the honor and respect of being on time for the appointment, when you have given the honor and respect of dressing and being on your best behavior for the appointment, WHY, in the name of God and everything that is still decent in the world, are so many people treated with such callousness-distain at such an event? Much like going into a merchandise business, a business which must depend on the profits of selling merchandise and the hired help acting as if they do not care whether anything is sold or not. How often do you go into a restaurant, place of business, and after callous treatment, surmise, "I would like to manage this place for about 10 minutes." It seems that it would be so simple just to do the job for which you are paid.

This writer went to his doctor's office, a place he has been going for many years, over and over, the same routine each time. As a professional, I know how to treat people, call them by name (the best sound in the world is a person's own name) pleasant at every turn. Almost always, it has been a pleasant experience. My age, decorated veteran, well known in the community and well able to pay my bill, (when I was in practice, we called such people carriage trade). My treatment is more routine than anything else. Showing respect to every fellow professional, even at the VA hospital, I am always dressed, jacket, tie, etc. In fact, the young man helping men redress, said, as he fixed my tie, "Their is no doubt that you were the sharpest officer in the U.S army", BUT, then you return to the front desk for a follow up appointment, scheduled every so many months, a new woman, from "Yankee land," and she pushed every button to show how nasty she could be...with my secretary-driver, standing right there watching. What possible joy does any fellow human being get from being intentionally nasty with another, especially the disabled, especially on those on whom they must depend for their employer to pay their salary.

Nothing surprises God, he made us. He knew that there would be those who would never understand mercy. He drowned billions, all on earth except eight in Noah's flood, before 5000 B.C. In his word, Psalm 136, 26 times, he uses one sentence, "for his mercy endureth forever." Jesus himself said, "Blessed are the merciful: for they shall obtain mercy" (Matt 5:7).

The Walking Dead

The Walking Dead

This writer was born 82 years ago on an eastern North Carolina tobacco farm, in a house in which his father was reared, a house which had survived the civil war. His mother was born two miles away in a house in which her family had lived for many generations, another house that survived the civil war. This writer has no doubt that before the foundation of the world, in the council chambers of eternity, God had magnificently designed the genes of these parents for me.

As in most of eastern North Carolina, dirt roads, no power lines, electric lines, running water lines, it was a matter of poverty but no one new they were poor because their lives were contented with God, family, country.

This writer graduated from a small country school, 13 students in the graduating class. Arriving at Chapel Hill, UNCH, I felt that I had died and gone to heaven, a place for academic maturation...a world of knowledge where I had unlimited access to everything of which I had dreamed. It took some adaptability mixed in with sons from the elitist of the state, much of their worldliness, self effacing pride was foreign to me. I was who I was, ambitious student, anxious for success. When I look back now, I realize that I probably came from much better ancestry than any of them. My parents never took refuge in family history, it was not until many years later that I discovered family documents, showing how the Morris family had landed on the shores of New Jersey, founded Morris Town, the Lucas family (my grandmother) one of the first families in the state, owners of most of one county. My mothers family equally established, land owning, working people.

After my many years of schooling, working my way through, totally. (Back then there was no such thing as student aid, scholarships, grants..you were on your own) I worked at night, classes in the day time, sold Bibles door to door during the summer months throughout eastern North Carolina. I do not believe I missed one "pig path."

On receiving my commission as an army medical officer, after these years of sweat and education on many levels, I was involved in the Korean conflict and since been a totally blind, 100% disabled veteran.

In other articles I have related the struggle, suffices to say, I was never stuck where I started, just kept on with the journey. Life is a journey, not a destination and God never promised any of us "ease." Rather, as promised throughout his word, to every person blessed with life, for the asking, the gift, leadership all the way.

I know God wanted me to see the world, what he had made, the many physical and spiritual structures. The challenge of experiencing it all, in spite of my disability. Whether in India, with all its "religiosity," Russia or China with their Godlessness, Europe with its corruption, the thought was always there, a person has only one life to live. Why not alive with God instead of dead with Satan? I truly believe as Paul said to Timothy, the unsaved-lost-unbelievers are already dead while alive (1 Timothy 5:6). Eight around the world trips, every continent, passport stamped at least once in 157 countries, I am amazed, filled with awe, that those who have been redeemed, chosen, elected, by God, by faith, through grace, do not understand how fortunate they are. The very idea that even in America, with every blessing, every promise, every prophecy of God's eternal word, the source book of all truth, most who claim the name of Christ, "pretend" and think they are playing games with God. In my lifetime, and once at Split, Yugoslavia, Buenos Aires, Argentina, I was at these large world games, the nine billion dollar 21st Olympic game open in London. There will be all the pomp of royalty, the celebrity of the world's misfits, Stratford, an area of this most magnificent city with thousands of athletes and tourists, will be turned into a fairy land.

The misfits who rule the world, the caricatures of media, government, entertainment, academia, think they have so many smarts, never realizing the paradox of their existence. I certainly can say nothing about the hearts of anyone (their personal relationship with God). The athletes, the watchers, their military protectors, significant, the time and money spent preparing for this lifestyle, not realizing how short life is, the worst of circumstances, (terrorist bombing, poisoning) how quickly it could and will be over....those so concerned with global warming, having no fear of the heat of hell. Those so concerned with animal life-not wearing animal products, unconcerned about the holocaust of abortion. When you hear athletes, their trainers, educators, even politicians, talk about smoking or "doping," how concerned are they with the hungry and thirsty? World Vision states that 1 in 7 people in the world will go to bed hungry tonight. (http://blog.worldvision.org/causes/hungerfree-10-surprising-facts-about-hunger/) There are so many consistent inconsistencies in our world. Years ago, definite formulas for pet food were established. Pet food is healthy. One does not feed "junk" to loving pets. Human beings so concerned about the eating of animal meat. Where is your concern for the leaching of plastics which wrap the meat? Poisonous chemicals in your water system (fluoride, chloride)? The bioeffices, some concerned about children and the elderly, should become concerned about the toxicity of prescription drugs, there is a 62 thousand chance of you becoming ill from a supplement compared to a prescription drug. A high chance of sickness' from a hospital, GMO's (genetically modified organisms)-MSG's (monosodium glutamate) are taking more lives than warfare.

In the upside down world of Facebook and Twitter, when the imposter occupier of the White House entertains in the White House, the world's largest producer of pornography, Ron Jeremy, and gay "king-ping" Terrence Bean. When a student who kills and wounds his fellow Americans in a theater gets a 27,000 dollars a year grant for graduate study, as a veteran who lost both legs gets less than 800 dollars a month from the VA, we can understand why dead people walk, talk, are in charge of the Satanic forces of the air (Eph 6).

The champion boxer George Foreman said, "When Jesus saved my soul, I was raised from the dead." This writer can state on the authority of God's word, he was a dead man boxing.

Mask

#1370

Mask

Until I sold them online, the walls of a large den in my house were covered not only with animal skins which I had brought back from all over the world (llama, zebra, Greenland white fox, etc.) amid them, masks from all over the world, mostly hand-carved such as the Dogon mask from Molly used every 62 years. These masks were worn by human beings, the excitement of escaping identity. Starting in the 20th century, certainly through my lifetime, Satan found new "brokenness," the shame-secrecy-sin of perverted sexual activity. It is time for the world, academia, particularly the church, to face the reality of what's going on. How many Catholic priests must go to jail (Father Lynn)? How many athletic coaches must go to jail (Sandusky)? Yes, we know there is nothing new about homosexuality, perversion, pedophilia. But, when it comes a matter of daily headlines, daily "camping" trash by gays on television, it is time to face the reality involving the sensibilities, innocence-ignorance of children and many adults.

One would think that a social-society-cultural evolution would cause many suspicions resulting in investigations. Does anyone have concern about the proliferation of "dirty book stores," pornography on the computer? The most puzzling hieroglyphics known to man are not the symbolic writing in ancient caves but the graffiti type, tawdry drawings, cheap words found in public bathrooms. As a child, even later as a college student, this type decadence was a mystery, yet it is just "painted over." Those who leave it there, walking the streets, teaching your children, giving spiritual instruction, behind the mask of respectability. Recent investigations have shown that 58% of all preachers have sexual problems, 72% of all men on church pews deviate from the norm, as do 25% of all women. Such brokenness is not easily repaired. A greater mystery unlike most sin (drunkenness, gambling, shopping, drug and food addiction) not easily recognized. Gays have told me that the greatest excitement of homosexuality is the matter of conquest....establishing contact with one another or, as predators, like the lion as I have seen in Africa, ready to jump on the weakest of a heard. The predator recognizes the child, not confident in his own skin. There is nothing more innocent than the inexperienced mind of a child. To the uninitiated, everything is obscure. Sexual experience for a boy is a matter of physical relief, for a girl, more mentally involved. We have all been through that age where we could not decide what was happening to us, as our bodies developed into sexual "machines." There should be a man of trust to council every boy. A mother, grandmother, to council every girl. Too often, the young boy already facing his many inadequacies, subjected to the winks and giggles of older men as they pretend to know all about sex. No girl should discover sex in the back seat of the car with a boy who just wants a quick relief, conquest.

This writer's first introduction to homosexuality was being approached by a male piano teacher and the second time by a highway patrolman, both hiding behind the mask of community acceptance. Do parents have any idea about the spiritual warfare-questions, going on in the minds of their children? Their inexperienced children learning-adapting-training to become responsible adults, dealing with those behind masks.

The great actress Bette Davis said, "Sex is the biggest joke God played on people." From the beginning, Adam and Eve, God has been interested in sex, creation, His method for providing Him with the chosen-elected personalities who will live with him forever. In the corridors-council chambers of eternity, he selected two people who would provide the genes for each unique person on earth..no two alike- finger prints, iris flecks of the eye. God is boss, uses whatever necessary to provide these unique individuals through the process of sex procreation. King David, naked Basheba and came, the world's richest, wealthiest, wisest man, King Solomon. Isaac-Rebecca, Jacob and Esau- Jacob the 12 Jewish tribes. Jacobed-Amran, Moses, Aaron, Ur, Miriam, and so it has been throughout history. Even God's own son, Jesus, God establishing, selecting, his bride, the church. Just imagine Satanic forces promoting the killing of the most innocent-babies (abortion), sacred honor of marriage (same sex marriage). We all lie with the idolatry of sex, learn to limit damage, but never forget our first view of pornography, the first suggestive arousal, fantasizing as we live in the realism of the present. The peeper, the rapist, the adulterer, never puts the risk-unmasking, on a scale. Jesus came to save us from sin as well as heal all sickness including the infirmities of sexual addiction. I have known many clinically sick people cured just by reading the book of John, God's word. I have recommended meditation, the reading of the Psalms, to victims of addiction. One can not read God's word, the only source of truth and remain the same. Show me your habits, pornography, hiding behind the sexual mask of perversion excitement, wrestling with the world flesh Devil and we will know you.

Your mind is yours. I have never known a sane psychiatrist or psychologist, they are just anxious to camouflage your problems for a price. We are in spiritual warfare, enough pain has been done. We recognize Satan and his rule of the powers of this world (Eph 6:12). In this as every other warfare, and we are constantly at war, the only answer is the whole armor of God that we will be able to stand (Eph 6:11). Any addictive behavior is driven by shame. In biology we were taught that nerve tissue will not regenerate but this is not true, God tells us that our minds can be "transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what [is] that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God" (Romans 12:2). We are his workmanship. (Eph 2:10)

Space World

#1369

Space World

There is no quick fix for complete brokenness. When will we admit that the 20th century, my lifetime, saw the world turn completely upside down...Satan convinced human kind that there was little purpose in life.

The details of the Colorado shooting become more bizarre everyday. Like the killings at Waco, Oklahoma city, lower Manhattan (9/11/2001), the events do not make sense. Like the useless warfare in Afghanistan, illegal's pouring across our boarders, enemy occupation of The White House, even in a world turned upside down, there is no way to make sense of any of it.

This writer is convinced that it started with the "technolization"-video camera of the addictive television watching generation. As an eye doctor, I saw immediately what had happened to the space world of children. The children of past centuries, loving-living outside, parroting their parents, at the alter of the video screen-bowed down to the controls, most became very near-sighted. Satan putting into the brain every parasitic plight-demonic activity making young people just as "mean" as possible. After 15 centuries, the great reformer Martin Luther, had given us liberty to think, to live by faith, natural into super-natural. Like a caged animal, your world becomes regimented-routine of the "hog slop" conjured by the evil of media control. The first knob turned in the morning, the last knob turned at night, the television set. IT, NOT YOU, DETERMINES YOUR DAY, THE CROWN AND GLORY OF MAN-YOUR MIND. YOU becoming enslaved..your space world limited and controlled by others.

My seminary professor's son has just returned from his second trip to Thailand this summer, taking seminarians to learn about religiosity in remote areas of the world. Comparing my trips there many years ago, Asia so remote-so untouched by civilization he said now-everything is technical. Like here, everyone with cell phones, students with Ipads on their desks. As always, the sex traffic still goes on, false religions still flourish, the people as polite and gentle as ever but now thoroughly exposed to Western decadence. I was an army officer during the Vietnam War, not there myself because I was still recovering. I was told that the north Vietnam generals, arriving in Saigon, said, "Get rid of this western decadence."

Are we willing to face the truth? Political correctness, popularity, pornography, compromise and Sinicism all a result of a limited space world. "But the natural man receiveth not the things of the Spirit of God: for they are foolishness unto him: neither can he know them, because they are spiritually discerned" (1 Cor 2:14). Those who claim the name of Christ are spiritual beings, believing the super-natural. Only one time in the New Testament is the word "wrestle" used (Eph 6:12). "For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in heavenly places." The chosen, the elect, those who God wants as his own, from the time your feet hit the floor in the morning until you retire at night, are a target. What better way for Satan to keep his target in sight than under the control of a Satanic media? Now, we see the results of several generations "raised" in front of a television screen.

We are slaves whether we want to believe it or not, slaves to the world-flesh-devil. Even the sophisticated, educated, powdered, perfumed, church members, do not believe that slavery applies to them. Paul, writer of most of the New Testament, proclaimed himself a servant (Romans 1:1). We do not want to be mocked for Christ (stigmata), much prefer for God to be our servant. (Bell hop Christianity)

Satan is a perfect symanasis, knows all the "word games" even some preachers-pastors think they are just fast swimmers as they go over the Niagara Falls of disbelief. We can not recognize the "awesomeness" of being the called out ones, knowing our space world here, limited, but we seek a continuing city (Hebrews 13:14).

English philosopher Charles Colton said, "Imitation is the scenerest form of flattery." There is no neutral ground. We are either imitators of Christ or victims of Satan. God's book, the only source of truth.

Cracking Down and Loosening Up

#1368

Cracking Down and Loosening Up

Back in the 1930's someone went to New York City one Sunday morning and complained that the streets were empty, asking a taxi driver, "Where is everyone?" Well, the driver said, its simple, the Catholics are all in church, the people on welfare are all in bed hung over from Saturday night, and Ms. Roosevelt has all the blacks and liberals at Hyde Park for a picnic.

This past Sunday morning, a center of radical liberalism, Penn State University, some thought it so simple to just remove the statue of Joe Paterno outside the Beaver stadium, wrapped in a sheet, and all the embarrassing-insulting-unsportsmanlike conduct associated with the University would "just go away." (Jerry Sandusky-young boys, gym showers, etc.) If it were just so simple to remove the results of the fire just by getting rid of the ashes. The results of radical socialism-liberalism promoted at our nations centers of academia-Universities (Univeristy of Miami, Duke, Penn State, Arizona State, Columbia, University of Texas, etc) will not be so easily removed as a statue. The resulting smut, smoldering, smoke, and smell in the academic meltdown, of true values will long stain the very walls of these institutions to say nothing of the parasitic affect on the minds of those who matriculated there.

I tell associates often, "OLD AGE IS NOT FOR SISS'YS." In the case of this writer, you do not only have ethos-pathos of the young years (poverty, paralysis of opportunity) but the muscular taint from the lethargy of experience. With the failing stamina of energy comes the sharpening of vision, particularly to one who is totally blind and must walk by faith, not sight. (2 Cor 5:7). When I considered the death of Sally Ride, astronaut, unusual woman, she brought back the experience of another.

I remember as if yesterday, the tall black athletic girl who walked into my examining room. She said, "my parents are your patients and recommended that I come to you, they think the sun rises in your back yard."

"I have just gotten my masters degree in physical education, I love anything pertained to playing ball, fast cars, science." I excel everywhere, but these myopic eyes are my downfall. People see these thick glasses and write me off. I understand there are new contact lenses which would take care of this problem. (This was the beginning of the contact lens therapy-small plastic prescriptions that fit right on the eyeball itself) I said, "Contact lenses are the thing of the future, I am fitting them on many young athletic people, girls, like you, very sensitive about their appearance, most would wear thumb tacks in their eyes to get rid of their glasses. Are you that motivated?"

Turns out she was an excellent patient-delirious with joy to get rid of her glasses. She had shown me her athletic glasses, those ugly things athletes had worn in the past, playing ball. Now, this already striking woman could walk on the golf course anywhere else, see and be seen. "The eyes, truly the windows of the soul."

She became so interested in my work that I asked her why she didn't study optometry, introduced her to the famed optometrist-golfer, Dr. Gil Morgan who like Emmet Cary Middlecoff, more famous for his golfing than dentistry. Already with two degrees, she studied at University of Houston and became the owner of several eye clinics, but more famous as an athlete (tennis) and golfer.

Sex is so overrated. I think she knew that I believed her to be homosexual, a lesbian. When I talked with her parents I understood why, an only child, her father obviously wanted a son, always called her, "son" and was much more interested in her working on cars with him than helping her mother in the kitchen. So, she knew all about cars and had some beautiful sports cars which she loved to drive fast. So many of the Nascar drivers were her patients. She had a good, lucrative life which did not include her family other than attending the funerals of her parents. Of course they left her everything they had, but already wealthy, she did not need it. She had taken the life which they had given her and did the best she could with it, a source of pride to them. My entry was only in a professional way.

Dr. Sally Ride, most assuredly fits into this category, I believe she had been married to a male but then spent her life with a female companion and I believe everyone knew she was a lesbian. After 1983 and her years as an astronaut, she spent her time with female academia, a true scientist, perhaps a source of inspiration to many girls who have difficulty with their sexuality. It is time to loosen up and get it all out into the open. I do not have the answers, only one does. Perhaps there's truth to the ancient Greek aphorism, "Know thyself."

Pollyanna

Pollyanna

Pollyanna is the story of an orphan girl, sent to live with her aunt in New England. The strict aunt caused Pollyanna to find something good about the world every day. Her aunt put her in a very bleak room, she looked out the window at the beauty of the hills.

Even Jesus, returning to his hometown of Nazareth, he always preached himself, his kin people did not like what he had to say, attempted to throw him over the cliff but he just walked away.

Young people, graduated from elementary school or even high school should learn early that the world in which they were born is not a very nice place, and it is not as simple as walking away.

"I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world." (John 16:33) Young people should learn to face truth, not the politically correct "trash" promoted by the secular humanist, liberal, debauchery of this present world.

Even Jesus called Peter, his faithful disciple, on whom he built the church, (Mat 16:18) and Judas, who betrayed him for the price of a hog, friend.

The lamb said to the lion, "Did he who made me make thee?"

It was impetuous Peter who denied our blessed Lord. Such an actor, when accused by the girl, he emphasized his denial by cursing (Mat 26:74). Man's fallacies do not surprise God. On resurrection morning, Christ specifically asked that Peter be informed of his resurrection. It was Peter who preached on Pentecost Sunday when 3,000 were added to the church.

Two of the greatest books in God's book were written by Peter. One should commit to memory, available to anyone wanting hope (1 Peter 3:15) the words which tell us that the trials of this world are better than gold. "That the trial of your faith, being much more precious than of gold that perisheth, though it be tried with fire, might be found unto praise and honour and glory at the appearing of Jesus Chris" (1 Peter 1:7).

Calvary was not a nice place. The artists have tried to make it nice, not showing the real condition of the body of our Lord, modest, a string of cloth around him. From many crucifixions, body parts, flies, the stench of blood-death. Thank God the Catholics showed the real crucifix, most Protestant churches no longer show even the empty cross, the greatest event in the history of the world.

Why should we be shocked when sinners act like sinners? Most do not realize what they are doing (Daniel 12:10). We are so shocked 12 are killed in a theatre watching a rotten movie, over about 50 injured by a well educated gunman. What were these children doing in that theatre in that late hour? These young people should have been home in bed, not watching Batman, or any other pagan man. The killer almost had a PhD in science. President Assad, from Syria, is a medical doctor. Osama Bin Laden's assistant was an MD. Lenin, Stalin, Mau were not ignorant men, well-educated. You can go in any prison and find enough men with doctorates to establish a University faculty.

One can feel muscle, suspect virtue but the seven carnal sins of the world will change you. Greed, sloth, pride, lust, envy, and gluttony will change you for the worst not the better.

In this visual world, man is never satisfied. It is hard to convince young people that happiness does not come from "things."

One book in The Bible is about a pagan woman, her name, Ruth, a Moabites. The sovereignty of the universe, God's authority, Ruth married Boas, they were the parents of Obed, Obed was the father of Jesse and Jesse was the father of David, who became Israel's greatest King, all in the ancestral line of Jesus Christ. Just think, if King David has not seen naked Basheba taking a bath, there would not have been a King Solomon, wise, wealthy, of whom the Queen of Sheba said, "The half has no been told" (1 Kings 10:7).

The last book of the Old Testament, Malachi, we are told that one looking like Elijah would appear. Around 500 years later, a time in which God was silent, John the Baptist, cousin of our Lord, appears on the scene (Mat 3:1) baptizing for the remission of sin.

This writer has traveled the world, has never encountered an anti-Christian, many who do not understand Christianity. Many cynical about Christianity, many disappointments, many things that do not make sense. Jonathan Edwards died at age 54, just a few weeks after becoming President of Princeton having graduated at Yale, at age 16. Charles Spurgeon, prince of preachers, died at age 58. The absurdity, sacred melodrama, Old Testament stories, New Testament truths, the awesome truth that the gospel has been preached, and that eventually every knee will bow to Jesus (Romans 14:11).

Diet of Violence

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Diet of Violence

Traveling the world, every continent, even though I could not understand their language, many times their passion (religion) one thing always came loud and clear: how much people as a group, are alike, how much individuals are different. We know that some plant life, some micro-biology, has survived thousands of years (Permafrost of Siberia, tombs of the Pharaoh's, Tasmania grass). Even in the firmament, why some stars keep glowing while others have burned out. For an individual to become a world class athlete, he must put in 10,000 hours of his life in preparation, two hours each day.

One of the world's greatest basketball stars, Michael Jordan, was reared here in this city. I remember the tall young black boy changing light bulbs, part-time work, at the YMCA. He was cut from his high school basketball team, but was determined to make the team. He set a goal of 600 free throws every day. Even after becoming a star, still practiced every day. Some men have the passion and persistence. Two famous New Testament personalities, Stephen, the first martyr, Saul (persecutor of the church), who became, on the Damascus road, the apostle Paul. Reportedly, both men studied in the same class, under the same Rabbi. They took exactly opposite directions, Stephen committed to Christ. Saul, committed to destroying Christians.

Every time there is a horrible tragedy such as the Colorado theatre shootings this past week, we ask, "Why?" We ask "why" in the Oklahoma city disaster, the 9/11 tragedy. (There's been about 20,000 Islamic terrorist events since 9/11/01)

What makes the difference, men who will go into a burning building-danger zone of your city (Firemen, law enforcement officers) to save life and then you have those who make great preparations to take life. The same doctor who studies long hours in school and otherwise, preparing to save lives, whether cancer surgery or emergency room feats, in the same hospital, may be taking life as an abortionist or letting some elderly person slip, as in slip into the darkness of euthanasia. It is all in the mind. The mind of a long distance runner, athletic competitor of any type, is totally different from the lazy addiction seduced. (food, alcohol-drugs)

If this totally blind veteran, challenged every day, could only get across that your place in life is no big deal, but your final position after life is a big deal. If I could only get across that in spite of your starting place (poverty, lack of genes, brains, looks) we are still required to give the best version of ourselves. Even God's chosen-elect, are sinners.

The hill called Calvary, shaped like a skull, was an awful place, the earth scarred from many crucifixions. There is nothing poetic about the paintings, stained glass windows, of our blessed Lord on the cross. His abused body, taken on all the sin, sickness, infirmities of the world (past, present, future) was such an awful atonement sight that God pulled down the shade of blackness. This forever answers the question, "why" when we question the almost routine diet of violence, the senselessness of why some die or are disabled early in life.

From the beginning, sin has not made sense, although false religions-false Gods, such as the acropolis at Athens, were put in high places. The commandments given by God to Moses and the government of the Jewish people make sense. 5,000 B.C, before Noah's flood, even among the most primitive civilizations, natural law was not that different from the spiritual law of the 10 commandments. Surely, God endowed every human soul with a form of conscience which prohibits murder, the stealing of another man's property, honoring your parents, etc.

With the philosophy of the humanist manifesto, the gay agenda, the communist government ideology, the ends justify the means, promoted and caressed through the technology of the video camera, television, SIN SEEMS ALMOST NORMAL. " For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high [places]" (Eph 6).

The political correct idea logs of liberalism have done their best to destroy the father, always the start in destroying civilization, making science a mockery with such fallacious activity as global warming, the greed in government grants. Breaking down resistance with poison such as fluoride and chloride in the water systems, anti-depressants (most used medication)...cowardess, compromise, deception. Even Dr. Michael Savage, PHD, one of the best prepared talk show hosts in the world, tells us that "the only thing left is prayer."

Dr. Savage is right, when you have man made activity you have what man can do, when you have prayer, you have what God can do. After these hideous visits into the depravity into the mind of man, we need what God can do.

I have one word: endurance, animal life or plant life. It takes persistence for life expansion. Most coaches are not athletes themselves. "As a man thinketh in his heart, so is he" (Proverbs 23:7). The greatest distance in the world, the 14 inches from a man's brain (mind) to his heart. The world, has heart trouble. What hope do you have when you get up in the morning? When one boards a plane or ship, you have the hope for a trip. Only in the heart do you replace negativity with positive emotion. To give credibility to the evil in the world, its not hurting them but hurting me.

I still remember the person, the first day of my life selling Bibles door to door as a college student, who did not pay for her Bible. (I remember her name, the location of her house, 60 years ago.) An employee robbed my house of many items, including a crystal pedestal cake plate I had purchased in Germany. I used this plate for birthday parties when I purchase a cake for each elderly lady at my church. I can not hold on to disappointment. Our only hope, my only hope, from the daily diet of violence, tomorrow or next year, less of me, more of Jesus, "greater is he that is in you than he that is in the world" (1 John 4:4).

Saboteur

Saboteur

"The Master comes! He calls for thee—
Go forth at His almighty word,
Obedient to His last command,
And tell to those who never heard,
Who sit in deepest shades of night,
That Christ has come to give them light.

The Master calls! Arise and go;
How blest His messenger to be!
He, Who hath given thee liberty,
Now bids thee set the captives free;
Proclaim His mighty power to save,
Who for the world His lifeblood gave.

The Master calls! Shall not thy heart
In warm responsive love reply,
“Lord, here am I; send me, send me,
Thy willing slave, to live or die—
An instrument unfit indeed,
Yet Thou wilt give me what I need”?

Hymn: Joy Forever

It is a fortunate person indeed, who never has never had problems-troubles. If you had not had problems-troubles, relax, they are on the way.

We do what we do because we believe what we believe. What do people do who do not have the "wait" of instruction found in God's word?

In the marvelous book, Imitation of Christ, Thomas a Kempis said, "I am what I am before God, no more no less."

At best, a man is just a man. This is why a man needs to know the best, Jesus.

I learned to depend on the promises of God at a very early age. Then, came college, trusting his mercy to see me through. I still remember as if it were yesterday, the stone fence behind Wilson Library, Chapel Hill. I had not eaten for several days, still several days before I got paid from my job. There was much food on the farm, back home, should I call for them to come get me. Back then, there were no grants, loans, student aid. God whispered to me that in that medical school library where I was working, the large chairs, money had fallen out of the pockets of those who sat in them. I found enough money in those chairs to get me through the next days until I was paid. Satan, his demons, power of the air (Eph 6:13) are the best saboteurs the world has ever known. Satan makes the Nazi saboteurs look like amateurs. Most Christians have never realized that you are a constant target, He wants the joy of your salvation, particularly the promise of eternity.

In the Muslim world, when a dark cloud comes over, it is referred to as "al-zulumat." In the Jewish world, the present world of emergency, dialing 9-1-1, we find our help in Psalm 91:1: "Whoever dwells in the shelter of the Most High will rest in the shadow of the Almighty." The ancient fathers of sons paid large amounts for their son's wives. Two of Jesus' ancestors, Jacob, left the wrath of his twin Esau, his hand pegged father, Isaac's wealth and was forced to work 14 years for "Uncle Laban" to get two wives, Leah and Rachel and their handmaidens. King David, "whom God loved" wanted King Saul's daughter for a wife. King Saul required the skins of 104 Philistines. Their descendant Jesus, endured the shame of the cross for his bride, the church. I wish saboteur Satan would find some "fresh meat" leave this old man alone for awhile. It seems that everyday there is a new problem-trouble. This hot summer, it seems that every air conditioner in every building I own, is failing. This spoiled nation wants comfort, air conditioning and I have no choice but to go through the expense of the repairs-replacements. Most people do not realize the unhealthiness of air conditioning. The worst, a plane, a test tube-Petri dish, flying through the air, producing germs, affecting everyone breathing the re-circulated air. Everyone reminds me that it is a new world. My cousin was telling me that one year when his father was sick the only money that came into their house was the 13 dollars and 50 cents from him driving a school bus and a small amount from his mother selling butter and eggs. Yet recently, as his wife shopped in a grocery store with coupons, he saw that most minority customers just handed the clerk a plastic card-modern welfare. In their shopping cart paid for by the tax payer, beer-wine, choice cuts of meat.

This writer was one of the first visitors to China after the Nixon re-opening. Like ants, all dressed the same, all living in the same conditions, all riding bicycles. Today, most Chinese have moved into the cities, world's greatest car market. China has 271 billionaires.

When my problems-troubles come up, when I want to quit, when I know the inequities of life, I realize there are many in much worse condition. Even the Democrat Secretary of agriculture, Milsap, stated that he is praying for rain, as most of the nation is in draught, crops drying up in the fields. God will always have the last word. At the time of the profit Joel, locusts devoured the land (Joel 1:14). Saboteur Satan just has the ability to target individuals but God can target nations and has done so many times. Do we think for one second that God will allow America to escape the murder of so many babies? It takes 2000 years for a taboo such as the shame of homosexuality or giving birth to children without marriage. In the present politically correct, humanist, secular, tolerance, all has changed over night. Total sabotage of family, fidelity, integrity.

"There is a river, the streams whereof shall make glad the city of God, the holy place of the tabernacles of the most High" (Psalm 46:4) In this same Psalm 46, twice, verses 7 and 11, "The Lord of hosts is with us; the God of Jacob is our refuge." When God says something twice, particularly in the same chapter of The Bible, it would be good to pay attention. The Bible, the only source book of truth.

Camouflage

Camouflage

Every week of my life, usually the weekend, in addition to my early morning time of communion with God when I “remember” what he did for me on Calvary with a sip of wine and a piece of bread. ATONMENT, taking to the cross, my rotten sins as well as all sin of the world (past, present, future). The wine, symbol of his shed blood, the bread, symbol of his broken body. We know that by his stripes, we are healed, that he took to the cross the healing of the world for all sickness and disability. I stand in amazement at how few human beings who claim his name, understand. Most, simply don't care. They want a cafeteria type “religion” where they can pick and chose what they believe. They want a “check-list” type religion of things you can do and things you cannot do. The road to Hell is paved with religion.

Jesus said, “No man can come to me, except the Father which hath sent me draw him: and I will raise him up at the last day” (John 6:44).

We are a chosen generation, strangers and pilgrims (1 Peter 2:11) just passing through. Our citizenship is in Heaven where God has royal tabernacles reserved for us. So, getting back to the weekend, I make my prayer list of those for whom I should keep in prayer throughout the week....employees, tenants, friends, God's work throughout the world, even family members.

I know that I have family who do not want their names on my prayer list BECAUSE they do not want God interfering in their lives. They live in a state of constant camouflage, pretending, thinking they have God fooled. I have lived my entire life around such people, around such churches, in a Democratic Republic where fraud and deception engulfs us.

I truly believe that God wanted me to experience the entire world, hence, my travels over the entire world. As this blind veteran went through the trauma of airports, hotels, the struggles of travel, I was stupid enough to think that people would be interested in the photographs taken by a blind man. (I have thousands of photographs, slides, taken with cameras from all over the world.) I learned early that people simply do not care. I have plastic shoe boxes filled with photographs. Only on very rare occasions has anyone looked at these pictures. (Facebook) Why should I be surprised? In my lifetime, I have seen camouflage takeover. When I entered the military service, there was no camouflage clothing. Large red crosses marked field hospitals on the battle field, ambulances. Now, everything in the military must be camouflaged just as everything in politics. The financial banking system is in a state of camouflage, total lack of transparency. The world's largest bank, HSBC (Hong Kong-Shanghi Banking Corp.) is the most corrupt banking system known to man. We have a Senator-Governor, Corsign, who stole 5.8 billion* and still rides around in a stretch limousine and eats from a gold plate. We have J.P. Morgan's, Jamie Diamond, who stole 6 billion and who still lives like a king. We have the greatest liar, deceiver, communist known to the political world as President of the United States and many will still chose him just as they chose the robber Parabis and put Jesus on the cross to keep “doing his thing” not even worrying about camouflage anymore. On my trips in Africa in the bush, animals blend in because of camouflage. With my telescopic lens, I could barely determine the animal from the terrain. So perfect was the blending of camouflage.

Today, world politics, world banking, world spiritual systems (Vatican Bank, Popes butler, Islamic extremists) nothing camouflaged. There have been 20,000 Islamic terrorist events since 9/11/2001. Even Satan must be surprised that he has broken the back of all middle class hardworking, tax paying, citizens, made a play-house of God's church-house, made extremism, political correctness, secular humanism the rule instead of the exception in all media, financial institutions, academic circles, political gambits and, GOD HELP US, the home, the last vessage of civilization. (Same sex marriage- ask don't tell, one half children raised by single parent).

Perhaps the greatest sin of the 20^th century, the time in which I lived, people turning a blind eye, refusing to accept the obvious-what is happening to their world. More interested in keeping their job than disclosing the decadence destroying their country...a me-ism survival skill. There is no greater camouflage of confusion anywhere than in the church. Those involved in the revival, the evangelist, the “card signer”, like this writer, responsible to God. When will we learn the mystery-purity of the Gospel? God's plan of salvation? Before the foundation of the world, God chose those who would follow him (Eph 1:4). In his chosen-elected, through the process of the new birth, he replaced the “old man” with his righteousness. We become a new creation, his workmanship (Eph 2:10). The 8^th and 9^th chapters of Romans clearly presents the awesome blessing of those elected by God. Before birth, no evil or good, as the twins Jacob and Esau, God elected on who he would love and have compassion (Romans 9:15). From the very beginning, one tree, God established his authority, his sovereignty, his rights. HE IS BOSS. All the camouflage in the world will not change the FACT OF FAITH that he knows what is going on. Do the tyrants of the world, those who are not content just to rob millions but must take billions, those who thrive on deception, not realizing that he has numbered the very hairs on your head. “But even the very hairs of your head are all numbered” (Luke 12:7).

The word wrestle is used only once in the New Testament, “For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high [places] ” (Eph 6:12). Those hiding under the camouflage of pretention, deceit, “political correctness”, attempts at the fairness of secular humanism, have no idea of what they are up against. Don't mess around with God, his last words in his book: “I am Alpha and Omega, the beginning and the end, the first and the last. Blessed [are] they that do his commandments, that they may have right to the tree of life, and may enter in through the gates into the city. For without [are] dogs, and sorcerers, and whoremongers, and murderers, and idolaters, and whosoever loveth and maketh a lie” (Revelation 22:13-15).

Boldness

Boldness

“There’s a light at the end of the darkness

And it shines for all the world to see

It will shine on your heart if you will let it

I was blind when it finally shined on me

There is hope in that Light for the hopeless

And a soothing balm for pain and misery

It’s as near as your faith but sometimes seems fleeting

I was blind when it finally shined on me.

There’s a Light at the end of the darkness

So look up when you are down and try to believe

Sometimes we have to be knocked down to make us look upward

I was looking up from the bottom when it finally shined on me.”

(An old Gatlin Brother's song)

My first trip to the holy land, outside the walls of Jerusalem, my guide said, “We will drive in at the Damascus gate.” I said, “Wait, I want to walk in.”

Only those with spiritual eyes can see. Only those who know Jesus can feel what I felt as I walked into the city of Jerusalem, walked the streets where Jesus and other saints had walked, stood near the wailing wall as Jews written prayers into the openings of the walls of Solomon's temple.

Years later, I participated in a conference where an army major general, wearing full military uniform, the two stars sparkling on each shoulder, gave his Christian testimony. He said, “I was an infantry officer, men killed around me, I never had an army chaplain speak to me about the welfare of my soul. How many Chaplain's ever deal with soldier’s souls?” When one loves enough, there will be boldness. Not only in discipleship but concern for those around us.

We go to our doctor for a periodic physical examination, to see if our body is functioning correctly. One's body is God's temple. If saved, chosen, elected, committed 100% to Jesus Christ. “Mutual you can not be” and, if Christian, can never get enough of God's word. Someone asked this writer, “How can you tell if anyone is Christian?” There is one sure way, not what they say or do, but what they read. A Christian can never get enough of God's word, The Bible, hymns, books relating to The Bible and like the ant that has found a drop of syrup on your kitchen cabinet, soon there is a whole line of ants because they are sharing the news of their wonderful discovery.

Oceans and skies do not have signs. Highways have signs. The pilot in the sky or on the ocean must depend on mathematical calculations. But, on the way to the bottom, there are always sign posts: the most obvious, carelessness and neglect, whether a plane falling out of the sky, a ship hitting to the bottom or a civilization intent on fall-decline. With man, falling to the bottom, the first sign is usually spiritual neglect through prayer. In the disciples prayer, taught by our Lord, he said, “Yield us not into temptation” (Mat 6:13) and, this old blind writer is convinced that their should be a corollary there that we should not put temptation in the path of our fellow man. Such as the sewer of television, the sewer of pornography, the world-wide loss of integrity.

When I attended church, I must admit that I was judgmental to the extent that I often fought the quandary of skepticism if many even understood why they were in the church, worship, baptism, Lord's table. I was a member of one Baptist church for many years where the baptistry was never used. Contrast this with the great Belview Baptist where during his long ministry, Dr. R. G Lee baptized an average of 20 new Christians every Sunday night. “We are buried with him, like Jesus, raised to walk a newness of life. Jesus when he was Baptized went up, straightway out of the water.” I would get depressed listening to T.V preachers such as Joel Osteen, large crowds laughing, clapping. But, at least they were there. We do what we do because we believe what we believe. I believe there is a chance of reaching someone within a place of reaching. If God wants them, he will do the rest. Thank God there are still men and women led to the mission field. I can not understand a fascination with Ellen White, Joseph Smith, Mary Baker Eddy, C.T Russel and their books. (42 million Watch Tower magazines printed each month). At least these people have a HUNGER. If God wants them, he will do the rest. “[It is] a faithful saying: For if we be dead with [him], we shall also live with [him]” (2 Timothy 2:11).

My father was just a dirt farmer, he could not get over the fact that he was a joint-heir with Jesus Christ (Romans 8:17). He would use this message in public prayer, express it to everyone...the awe of being on the same level with Jesus, the son of God, the creator of the world.

Every morning of my life, around 5 am, I have my time of communion, small piece of bread, small taste of wine, realizing, recognizing, that Jesus saved me from sin and heals me of all disease. (Isaiah 53) God wants and expects boldness in our belief system. We can face the day knowing that greater is he that is in us, than he that is in the world. (1 John 4:4)