Arrogance

Mark Twain said, “The most beautiful sight in a foreign port or foreign land was an American flag flying at full staff.” 8 trips around the world, every continent, I can appreciate his enjoyment seeing an American flag flying from a ship or at an American embassy on embassy row at any foreign capital city.

More beautiful than the American flag, looking across any foreign city, church steeples with the Christian cross. The church itself has done something that the ACLU, the courts, secular state-controlled news media, organized atheism, has never been able to do. Churches have removed the Christian cross, not only from their exterior but the interior of the sanctuary. Many years ago when this writer had some sight, more energy, when churches actually appreciated a message from an actual Christian, I was in many churches... houses of worship, where you never saw a cross. The cross is the pivotal point of all history, the epitome of Christianity. It is not possible to have too may crosses at a church. I am firmly convinced that every born again, saved Christian, should wear a cross on the lapel of a coat... YOUR TRUE IDENTITY. I have recently ordered a large supply of crosses. I intend to give one to every Christian I meet. The time has come when the Christian must be identified in every way possible.

In my Facebook online memories, there is a photograph of me as a young child with a cross on my lapel. I well remember how proud I was to wear that cross, identifying me as a Christian... separating me from the world. There was a time when young girls wore crosses around their neck. I so admire the Catholics who unashamedly wear the cross, who unashamedly display the cross in the church, who unashamedly display the crucifix in every classroom, in every worship service, Sunday School class Fixation on the cross is our privilege.

In Europe, especially Italy and England, which Muslims have invaded, crosses and crucifixes have been taken from the schools. In Charlotte, North Carolina, a Christian building was rented to Muslims and the crosses removed. When Muslim Obama spoke at Catholic Georgetown University all religious symbols, including the cross, were covered. So politically-correct, so weak, so ashamed of our Savior, Christian churches themselves have done something which the non Christians could never have accomplished. This is the arrogance of unbelievers, mostly just playing church. More unbelievable, removal of the word church from many church buildings, houses of worship. Replacement with such words as vineyard, praise center, outreach, etc. So many do not want the word church associated with their group. Can you imagine any Christian faith group not wanting their center of worship identified as a church, the bride of Christ?.

We expect the world to act like the world, often being surprised when people of the world act like sinners. We expect Christians in a church to act like Christians and we should not be disappointed when they act like those of the world. The first words from an unbeliever, criticism of those who pretend to be believers.

The world gets angry when Christians act like Christians, stand up for Jesus Christ, display of the ten commandments, display of Christmas scenes, belief in prayer by military Chaplains, desire prayer at athletic events, commencement exercises. Universities founded by Christians now do not have prayer at graduation. Princeton University, founded as a Christian school at it's beginning, ministerial graduates were given a new suit of clothes, by the 5^th Avenue Presbyterian Church in New York City. To show how far Princeton has gone down the drain of atheism, bio-ethicist, Peter Singer, advocates abortion of children even after birth... murder of a child, if the child does not meet certain specifications.

I can tell you without fear of contradiction, that the Christian-Church supported college, even the small ones, from everything I have learned, are not different from the non-religious school.

Starting in 1963, prayer out of the school, 1973 legalizing abortion, one satanic step after another... organized religion attempting to do what only the canvas artist and lawyer are best at doing making the color gray out of black and white. In the forest of personal affairs, world conflict, national hypocrisy, the Christian should not lose sight of that one great tree in the forest... the tree on which our blessed Lord was crucified.

On a hill far away, stood an old rugged Cross
The emblem of suff'ring and shame
And I love that old Cross where the dearest and best
For a world of lost sinners was slain

Hymn “Old Rugged Cross”

Nail First Hit

Some friends arrived at my beach house. Tom, Where is your hammer. Then Bruce began nailing down the nails on my porch that were sticking up. Always, You hit the nail sticking up highest first. Over the years, my house sitting right on the beach, the ocean, constant motion, nails give away, working their way up . Of course the people working for me are too lazy to notice these nails. They don't care if I walk on them, trip a shoe over them. This friend did and he spent some time hitting the nails that were sticking up.

Let me assure you, if you stand up, stick up against the evils of the world, you will be the first hit.

The time is long gone when real men of principles stand up for the absolutes of right and wrong. There was a time, when preachers, teachers, civil rights leaders, even some politicians, in spite of political correctness-popularity-money, would stand up for what is right. They knew they would be called a nut, strange, odd but, the Holy Spirit of God indwelling their very being demanded that they take a stand.

I learned about evil in the world as a small child. My father had a friend who worked for the NC Hospital for the Negro insane (now called cherry hospital after governor Greg Cherry) Goldsboro, NC. This would have been around 1937. My father would stop by to see his friend and I would watch the horror of what went on at that type place. (the negro males were castrated.) The contonement-type buildings porches around. Black people tied on the porches. Those with sense enough to do any type of work,working in the fields, picking beans, etc. This was an all black operation except for some employees. A black man-foreman riding on a horse through the fields with a whip, hitting those who were not working fast enough,. The same thing took place at the NC School for the Blind, separated whites in Raleigh, blacks in Garner. I could describe what went on there. Evils at prisons, hospitals, etc. Which I have described before the NC legislature but no one cared.

In communist China, where babies are immediately separated from mothers (children's palaces) children, raised by the state. More or less trained as animals

Traveling the world, every continent, I have seen evil hatched in hell but it is not necessary to leave this country. Politicians, pastors, minority leaders, have sat back believing the greatest lie ever promoted by Satan, (things will get better).. In your lifetime, you country has become financially, morally, spiritually bankrupt.

There is not another civilization-culture that has lost more privacy... internet, TSA, IRS, DMV, credit and banking institutions, even the education system. You now get a permit or license for everything. Most of the loss of freedom started with FDR, his agricultural stabilization programs, his sociology experiments (social security, social services, FDA, etc.) The family farm, the symbol of liberty, now just another government program with all the shackles involved. The community schoolhouse, locally controlled now shackled by mandates. The family doctor, hospital, once, next to the pastor, essence of privacy and trust, controlled by government.

In my lifetime, I have seen fearless advocacy groups, civil rights workers, preachers of the gospel stand up for what is right, regardless of the cost. As in God's word, Acts 5:27, we were told to “sit down and shut up.” We just talked louder and, thankfully, there were some converts. With political correctness, liberation theology, among the blacks, Baptists (particularly Southern Baptists and Free Will Baptists) running away from the greatest evils in the world, abortion and same sex marriage, only a few stand against anything. The Episcopalians, Lutherans, Presbyterians, Methodists with their lesbian bishops, gay pastors have jumped into the box of acceptability-popularity. You cannot lift a box by standing in it. Winston Churchill said long ago., “try lifting a bucket by standing in it.” Instead of the church changing the world, the world has changed the church, drums and drama, bells and smells. The judiciary, law enforcement, on the side of thugs and bullies. The armed forces expecting real warriors to be joined by homosexuals, tri-sexuals, bi-sexuals, cross dressers ready to fight and defend our nation with sexual innuendos, cosmetic cases and hair dryers.

The secular, state-controlled news media along with the totalitarian democrat party is doing everything possible to hit first those willing to stand. As one pastor (Alan Layman, First Baptist church, Wilmington, NC) said, “If I preach against sin I will lose most of my congregation.” Biometrics is the new science, sports events, political gatherings. Your features, like all your other personal information, are stored in a database but, as I told a ministerial group one time talking about the marvels of the computer, think of the marvels of God's knowledge about us, just think 450 MILLION square miles of arctic crystals at both the north and south poles, each crystal, each snowflake, with it's own God inspired design. This totally blind veteran is accustomed to being attacked... just hammer me.

The Inner Ring

Don't confuse celebrity with success. Celebrity usually involves talent. Success usually involves a special gift, a gift of charisma, good looks, exceptional skills and intelligence. This accounts for some achieving the inner ring so easily, they climb the ladder of success so rapidly. This applies not only to politicians but to men and women in every area of vocation or endeavor. You put flesh on the characters of history. When you put blood in their veins, you understand them much better. One of the the most interesting men in the history of the world, Joseph takes on new significance when you study him looking forward not backwards. Historians study biographies looking backwards. Abraham, Isaac, Jacob, Joseph had no understanding of their walk through history.

You go back 3800 years to study the effect of Joesph on world history. His great, great grandfather, Terah, worshiper of idols, lived to be over 300. Joseph's great, grandfather, Abraham first Jew lived to be 175. His grandfather, Isaac preferred Esau over Jacob. Jacob was actually enslaved by his uncle in order to marry the women he loved. Rachel died in the child birth of Benjamin. The ten sons of Leah, wife of Jacob, who he did not love, future leaders of the tribes of Israel, despised Joseph who was a brash, spoiled, gifted favorite son of Jacob.

Joseph, sold into slavery by his brothers certainly, gifted in early reaching the inner circles in Egypt. His dreams led to the favoritism of a Pharaoh, he became ruler of Egypt BUT, underneath it all, he was a con man. During the seven years of “plenty” his gift for genius stored grain. Then, during the 7 years of “famine” the people wanting bread, he first had them buy grain with their money... silver and gold. The second year of the famine, they had no money so he took their cattle. During the famine, when they had nothing else to sell, they sold themselves. Jacob, who lived to be 130, and, books have been written on this subject. Through the brothers, eventually came to Egypt and to Goshen. The first Jewish laws and traditions were not given at Sanai. It is believed that Jacob instructed Joseph's sons and it is believed, that the mother of Joseph's sons was not Egyptian but one of earlier Jewish inhabitants of Egypt.

We do not know about Joseph's other dreams, but, supposedly, Joesph stored much of the Egyptian wealth in places as far as the Euphrates river. History and archeology have disclosed many engineering “feats” along the Nile which preserved the Jewish nation during their long enslavement as well as the mother of Moses, Jochebed her ark of deliverance. It was not just the coat of many colors. Joseph knowing that he was exceptional, “God intended it for good” (Genesis 50:20)

He was a 17 year old boy, spoiled and gifted, but the circle of shackles around him on the enslaved caravan immuned him forever in his behavior and in his trust of God. Put flesh on Potafor, Potafor's wife, even the Pharaoh. The essentials of this history, the tales of Joseph's character, warts and all, evident now as always. The hymn writer says “God moves in mysterious ways, his wonders to perform.”

Most of us have never been in the inner circle-ring. We know nothing of the sky box at sports events, inaugural festivities even the pomp and circumstance involving prestigious people, money of the elitists. Peasants, always onlookers. Like the Egyptians, forever eaking out subsistence from the ten miles of mud on either side of the Nile. In the famines, earthquakes, floods, droughts of history people sold all... even their very souls... for survival. God willing, in this age of technology we will not be faced with such but God has His methods of dealing with evil regardless of the wisdom of man. If you belong to Christ, your happiness comes from working and living in the lower areas not the inner ring.

Bonding

A mother has nine months to bond with a child. The father's bonding must begin after the birth.

We, as human beings, part Christ are warned about loving things of the world. Love not the world, neither the things that are in the world. If any man love the world, the love of the Father is not in him.
1 John 2:14-16

Before the day of the credit card, there was the “lay away” plan. Clothing, furniture, jewelry, things which people wanted. The merchant would keep it for them until they had paid for it. Today, the average credit card holder has an average balance of $7,300 and pays an average interest rate of 13.1 percent. Before the credit card, I have known people to economize, lie and cheat to accumulate enough money to buy a ticket to a rock concert, athletic event, car race. These same people will put 25 cents in the collection plate in church and think they have done God a favor. More and more, it is becoming essential to have things with which to barter or exchange in order to acquire other things. In countries with fiat currency (paper money) has become so worthless (and this is rapidly happening in America) gold, silver, memorial coins are being used as well as art objects. During the Great Depression parcels of of land were exchanged for farm equipment, furniture, funds for schooling, or other things which families must have. I remember so very well, one of my grandfathers exchanged a valuable piece of farm land for some machinery which he needed. During the Great Depression, corporate executives, bankers, and others with money or access to money became filthy rich taking advantage of people who had no alternative except to sell.

This writer, poorest of university students, remembers so well saving for his university class ring. I was so proud of the gold university ring with the onyx stone. Later in life, at at time of financial dilemma, it was necessary for me to sell that ring in order for me to pay a debt. In spite of our bonding with things, we must be willing to let go.

In the plans already on the drawing board for globalism, one world order, there will be the super rich and the vast majority of poor. Only those more blind than this blind writer cannot see this happening this very day. All over the world, the super rich, the complete disappearance of the middle class, the masses of the very poor. No better example of this than Israel a county of 7.5 million people. The super rich and the very poor. Even in Israel, like Egypt, Libya, Syria and many other countries where it is happening or about to happen. The hard working, God-fearing, tax-paying, poor are revolting. During the French Revolution, the super rich, fearing for the destruction of the nation, actually went among the poor passing out food even though hudreds of thousands of the poor were being exterminated.

There should be a bonding among the poor, particularly the Christian poor. A “oneness” which they share, their love for God and God's love for them. Christ had rather go to Hell for them than go to Heaven without them. Th writer C.S. Lewis said, “In all denominations, Christian beliefs, there should be a oneness which keeps believers together.” This is not true with captains and Kings, politicians and pretenders. They do not trust one another, have little affection for one another there only credibility between themselves comes from the fact that they know the truth about each other... that they cannot be trusted. Every con-man knows what he is. Every politician, faking preacher, corrupt businessman knows that he might be fooling someone but not himself, his family, the Creator of the universe.

The largest part of the growing up experience is learning early in life that there are three groups of people on campus, in the social world and the business world. You find the pretenders, those pretending to be what they are not. The over comers, those who live above pretension, the compromisers, the worlds the flesh the devil, and I am sorry to say, most churches, schools. Political parties, businesses are filled with compromisers. You go along to get along afraid to stand up, speak out because you may prove that you have not bonded with the “theys or thems” of the world. It takes backbone to be different, to be called names. Satan wants you to be popular with his crowd.

Thriving or Surviving

My only child, my son, doctor John Morris and his family were for many years on the foreign mission field. He said, that new converts, so much faith in God, the Power of God, that in case of sickness, before a doctor was found, they took time to pray over the one who was ill, sought first the Great Physician.

The cross is the pivotal point in all history. It should be evident to everyone that Christians have drifted from the Cross.

One of my friends, an outstanding musician would be asked to substitute for the minister of music when he was on vacation from the Episcopal Church. The pastor would tell him, “ we don’t want to hear anything about blood or the cross.” This tells you how far this denomination has drifted from the cross and the saving, redeemer, precious blood of Jesus Christ.

Even in the Baptist Church you no longer hear the name of Jesus and no longer see a Cross.

One of my friends died recently, former president of a Christian College, a program sent to me tells the pomp and drama of his funeral. I told someone, I hope the democrat party will save him because he saws more interested in politics than Christianity.

It is the unexpecteds of life which cause our problems.. the unexpecteds of the stock market, the unexpected tragedies which happen so quickly in life. I form the light, and create darkness: I make peace, and create evil: I the LORD do all these things. (Isaiah 45:7)

Does our faith stand the test, when the house burns down?

Does our faith stand the test at the hospital during death? We spend thousands of dollars at the hospital, do we stand on the solid rock during sickness and death?

Does our faith stand the test when others prosper and we do not?

Does our faith stand the test when we have a child who will never be be well, who will always be disabled, while other children flourish?

Does our faith stand the test when we see others using illicit drugs, alcohol and we do everything possible to protect our health?

Have you come to terms with the Sovereignty of God, that He is Boss, He expects our trust? “I am the Lord there is no one else like me” (Isaiah 45:5)

“Woe to those who quarrel with their Maker, those who are nothing but potsherds among the potsherds on the ground. Does the clay say to the potter, ‘What are you making?’ Does your work say, ‘The potter has no hands’? (Isaiah 45:9)

Everyone should watch a potter at work. I so well remember watching a potter and clay in Africa. The clay never talks back to the potter, the potter is in charge. He never takes his eyes off the wheel. Praise be to God, even in His mind, in the council chambers of eternity He began to mold and plan us. (Psalm 139:13):(Psalm 127:3)

I have traveled the world, every continent, mothers nurturing babies of every color under all sociological conditions. The children of the world are God's chief creation AND they grow into adults. In America, more so then anyplace in the world., would you feed your million dollar race horse the same food you would feed your precious child... so lacking in nutrition, so infested with toxins, chemicals, synthetics. The two greatest evils in America, abortion and same sex marriage. Next to these social, Antichrist evils the physical and spiritual neglect of children. Get them out of public schools at least until the public schools can be cleansed to the Godless totalitarianism and the communism which has so easily seized this nation. The biggest lie in history, the lie bought hook, line, and sinker by the politicians, preachers, educators, things will change. They have not changed except for the worse. More degrees, less common sense. Making a living, not a life. More medicine, less health. More churches, less Christianity.

Punch Bowl

Usually, before the party is over, especially if spirits have been added to the mixture, the punch bowl is removed from the table. This usually means that the guests have had enough to drink. This is my 81^st birthday. Years ago, I thought the bowl would have been removed before now. But God, in His infinite mercy, has seen fit to keep me around. HE IS BOSS. Our life, young or short, a trip, not a destination.

One minister said the most difficult question he ever answers, to parents who have lost a small baby or young child, “why did God take this child so young?”. I believe he gave the best answer “With God there is no time. He knows all. He knew the child might die of some dreadful disease or perish in some terrible accident, so He decided in His grace and mercy, not to put you or the child through such, to take the child young”.

Losing my eyesight early in life, I must have asked over a thousand times, why me? The question has always come back, because you can handle it. Perhaps, God in his omnipotence, omniscience, sovereignty, knew that in some way, I could be a blessing in my sightless condition, even in dictating what I am saying here.

I truly believe that while I still had a fraction of vision in one eye, God wanted me to see the world...arranged for me to have the funds to travel every continent. It has been disappointing that with the thousands of photographs made by this almost blind man, the knowledge gained in these world travels my expertise, in this area has not be utilized. I found early that very few people, even members of my own family, had little interest in my travel exploits, the fact that a blind man can still work, invest, do all of the things that the “normal” can do. Other than a living witness to the salvation of our blessed Lord, I want to be a witness to the fact, and it is a fact, that the world's largest minority, the disabled, can live productive lives.

The greatest shame of America, the greatest shame of the national experience, the treatment of disabled veterans and handicapped citizens. Almost as disgraceful as the treatment of Native Americans (Indians), the slavery of fellow human beings, many of which were brought over from Africa against their will, the ignoring of the abilities, God fearing, tax paying, working, disabled citizens. The handicapped (blind, deaf, crippled, mentally challenged) very often are the most reliable workers. They are expected to pay their taxes, tithes, live as law abiding as any other citizen (you find very few disabled people in prison) yet, the big tax dollars are spent on libraries, parks, trails, concert halls, and are unavailable to the handicapped. This is the reason you see so few disabled citizens at political gatherings, concert halls, even the church house. Christ left the admonition to go into all the world and preach the gospel and baptize them. Surely he said forget the disabled! How many disabled people have you ever seen in a baptistry?

I have been asked to leave two southern baptist churches even though, I was probably the most talented speaker, one of the largest givers in each. The first, (First Baptist Church, Goldsboro, NC), I asked the question, “When will this church become involved in the holocaust of abortion, the greatest evil in the world today?”. The pastor, Gilmer Cross said, “It is not the place of the church to become involved in social problems”. The second, (First Baptist Church, Wilmington, NC) I had returned from the Southern Baptist Convention which I attended each year. I asked the question, “When will you here in this church get as involved with the souls of the many who pass this church every day as you are with the souls of the black people who live across the ocean?”. (Dr. Queen, and his chief henchman, Mr. Parker, advised me that we were not to be involved in any social integration program, that they had their own churches.) Search, probe, investigate. You will find that the very reason abortion, the gay agenda, exploitation by taxation, of the poorest is due to a very unholy alliance between baptists and the Democrat party. Don't tell me you are a Christian if you support the platform with money or vote of a Democrat.

Old age is not for sissies. Amazing how rapidly the years go by. Life is not a “dress rehearsal”. Get aboard. The trip will be over before you know it. I just want one thing on my grave marker...Because thy loving kindness is better than life, my lips shall praise thee. Psalm 63:3.

Talk To The Animals

Talk To The Animals

If we could talk to the animals, just imagine it...we'd study elephant and eagle, buffalo and beagle, alligator, guinea pig and flea. - Dr. Doolittle lyrics; If I Could Talk To The Animals.

In the mind of God, the blessedness of animal life, the first man, Adam, named all of the animals, their kind, from their kind, all the species.

I have never ceased to be amazed at human devotion to pets...not just dogs and cats, but horses, monkeys, iguanas, birds. I have enough trouble taking care of myself. I do not think a pet wants to depend on me.

My friend Catherine had a beautiful guide dog about which she talked at length of the mutual devotion she shared with her dog. Blind her entire life, she had never seen an animal...would ask me to describe snakes, lizards, etc. Crossing a street, a car of careless teenagers, ran over she and her dog, killing her dog, Alma. She never recovered from her dog's death, refused to have another. The young people in the car did not even stop. If there is anything I have learned in my long life as a disabled veteran, the “normal” just do not care. As one restaurant owner said to me, (Middle of the Island, Wrightsville Beach, NC), disabled people in my restaurant “make others feel uncomfortable”. I think it is the same way at the church house, school house, even your house. The beauty of animals is unconditional love regardless of disability, your looks, your social standing, your money.

Many years ago, with a small amount of vision in my left eye, I made several trips around the world, particularly to the dark continent of Africa. I went on several photography safaris, sleeping in tents, cooking over an open fire. I have so many marvelous photographs which I wish I could see in order to restore my memories.

My guides were always fascinated that a blind man would make these efforts. Thank God I did it while there were animals to view and the world had not become so incrusted with the suffocation of warfare.

In Tanzania, Kalahari, great herds of wildebeests, lions in the bush, awaiting to attack a straggler, one who could not keep up, or one who's mother had just given birth. Or a pride of lions asleep on their back with the feet in the air. In the later of life, the strong always take over the weak. In Kenya, a great herd of the most majestic animals, elephants, at one side of a lake with a herd of buffalo on the other side. Driving towards the sunset, long-necked giraffes crossing the pathway...with my telescopic lens watching the blending of animals with the bush. Natural survival adaptation. One river, Congo, 350,000 hippopotamuses under the water during the heat of daylight, making the river look like a cobblestone road.

In the poverty of India and Asia, water buffaloes used for plowing the fields. Camels all over the world used for transportation. I suffered watching the donkeys in Afghanistan, Pakistan, even Greece, who always seemed to be carrying such burdens. There great discrepancies in human life as in animal life. Beasts of burden such as the mules of America compared to the pampered horses of the royal family or those wagered at race tracks.

My father never allowed us to pet animals on the farm which would be used for meat, even the young calves. The soulless animal does not realize he is going to die blessed by his Creator with the ability to survive. There are many things in this world I do not understand. I do not understand why God arranged for rats (the nastiest animal known to mankind, no excretory system, just excreting and eliminating everywhere he goes, poisoning our environment). I do not understand snakes, scorpions, lizards, spiders, termites. But in the food chain, the later of God's omnipotence there was a reason.

When Leeuwenhoek discovered the microscope in 1862, and even to this day, when thousands of investigators are staring through electronic microscopes, we become increasingly amazed at animal life. Then and now, and only God alone knows what the future holds, animal life is a great part of our life, mere mortals chosen by God to live on this earth with thanksgiving, He has provided us with the beast of burden to do hard work (oxen dragging great trees out of the swamps, water buffalo going round and round pumping water out of the ground, mules pulling cultivators for crop life and even, at one time, beautiful horses pulling buggies for the family doctor or providing ridership for the generals at the head of the armed forces).

When Caesar crossed the Hellespont with makeshift cages of African animals which Europeans had never seen, when a giraffe was walked all the way from Rome to Paris with thousands lining the roadways to see such an animal, when Fala, FDR's faithful pet, was such a nurturer to the crippled President as he guided this nation during WWII or as I see one of my neighbors walking their precious dog, in THEIR daily exercise, we realize the blessedness of talking with animals, many of whom, probably talk back in actions some can understand.

Stewardship

About ten years following graduation, I still had some sight at the time, was still risking my life and the lives to others by driving, I stopped by a city in Alabama where a classmate was in practice. He had joined the practice of his outstanding father. Large building, well trained technicians, everything that a doctor would want.

He said, “I want you to see my home.” In his expensive car we drove to his home up in the foothills of the city. It was magnificent, commanding one hillside. Through every window a beautiful view. I said, “Why would anyone want to go to heaven and leave this?” This committed Christian said, “Walk through and put a sticky note on everything I will take with me to heaven when I die.” I don't believe he was sure about his wife, he said, “the only thing I will take with me my children, my bible written in my heart”.

When I was a youngster in Sunday school, and we had lessons on stewardship, I thought it was just about giving money to God. Stewardship involves everything, the separated life, conservative in everything, in politics. I do not want anyone to tell me they are conservative unless conservative in every way. I have seen too many hungry people in the world (8 around the world trips) to put food in a garbage can. I have seen too many desperately poor people desperate for shelter, clothing, to take any comfort lightly.

In my lifetime, I have seen my country turn into a perverse nation... bankrupt financially, bankrupt morally, bankrupt spiritually.

When God designed, in His mind, and just spoke, the design of the universe, the world and everything in it was perfect. He gave little consideration to our wants-desires only our needs. Before conception; egg and sperm, in His mind, He had each of us individually, and our needs, in His plan. He only wants our trust and our showing our love for Him by returning to Him just a part of what He has given us. WE CANNOT OUTGIVE GOD. WE CAN GIVE WITHOUT LOVING BUT, WE CANNOT LOVE WITHOUT GIVING He expects stewardship of our things, our mind, our tongue, thoughts, energy. He sees no sweat under our armpits, no callouses on our knees. (Tradition, disciple Thomas had callouses on his knees from spending so much time in payer). Man's wisdom, wars, technology, scientific exploits... always thinking we can improve on God's work. Control of weeds with chemical weed killer, (Roundup) has led to super weeds. Control of staph infections with antibiotics has led to super “bugs”. Blessed with food-giving plants, plants with seed for further production. We now have GMO seed. Believe it or not, there are countrys that do not allow genetically-modified seed. The country of Hungary destroyed many acres of corn because they do not allow genetically-modified seed. The horror story is just beginning for people who eat genetically-modified food... seedless grapes, seedless watermelon, GMO corn, beans, etc.

This week we have memorial services involving 9-11-2001 when “supposedly” two planes brought down two towers of the World Trade Center ( the third tower, building 7 not hit by plane) “fell” later One plane “supposedly” hitting the Pentagon. There is no doubt about a plane around 10am (United Flight 93) crashing on a field around Shanksville PA... leaving a crater, grave site for 45 (passengers). The plane was totally demolished. First arrivals at the scene saw one tire and amazingly, a scorched Bible. It is rewarding to know that in the stewardship of our time, some, even on flights, read God's Word.

Ancients describe faith as safety and security in the cleft of a rock or under a mother bird's wing.

When you have money, you have what money can do. When you have government, you have what government can do. When you have family, friends, neighbors, you have what they can do. When you have the Power of God in your life , demonstrated through your Christian stewardship and through you prayer life, you have what God can do. If there is anything, this world, this nation, our individual lives need, it is what God can do.

1He that dwelleth in the secret place of the most High shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty.

2I will say of the LORD, He is my refuge and my fortress: my God; in him will I trust.

3Surely he shall deliver thee from the snare of the fowler, and from the noisome pestilence.

4He shall cover thee with his feathers, and under his wings shalt thou trust: his truth shall be thy shield and buckler.

-Psalm 91

War On Poverty

Born in the depths of the Great Depression, poverty during my young years, poverty during my long education especially, poverty during my military service, living poor ever since because I have never known anything else, in my travels around the world I was not shocked at anything regarding the depravity-poverty of human beings.

I remember in India, hovels along the roadside. Emaciated men working on the roads, women in rags working in the fields... victims of government enslavement, victims of religion, sacred cows walking around eating everything green. Same penalty for hitting a cow as for hitting a human being. (My guide told me how one of these pregnant mothers working in the fields would just squat and have the baby, wrap the baby, carry the baby on her back ,while continuing to work the rest of the day) It is hard to imagine how human beings can be more destitute.

A young man had worked for me for a short time. Victim of liberal-addicted parents (both parents alcoholic) He had drifted through the local university, degree in sociology. He had never been able to find a regular job, just part-time employment , living on the edge. Frankly, I had about forgotten him but he sent one of his friends for me.

The room, in a destitute part of town was the bleakest place I have ever seen. I had known little about his lifestyle but, here he was, dying of HIV, AIDS. Like so many, he was at the end of the road, had exhausted all unemployment benefits. (I understand there are three million people like that in this country today.) , every fragment of welfare largess. Somewhere, somehow, he had obtained some poison. He told me he was going to make one last cocktail with the poison but wanted me there in case he needed assistance in his suicide. He begged me to help him, this was his only escape from a very cruel world.

I asked him about family. He told me how members of his family, the last time he saw them, had isolated him from them, special eating place. They were afraid to touch anything he had touched, so afraid of infection from AIDS. I did get the father's name and phone number. I called him and begged him to come pick up his son. I explained to him that there was little chance of infection and that this would be the last true compassion he could show. I understand the son died and was buried in an unmarked grave.

In the early days of the AIDS scare, it was difficult to find a funeral home that that would bury a victim of AIDS.

One editor told me that I probably knew more about poverty in eastern North Carolina than any man he had ever known. Hwy. 95 to the coast if it were a state, would be the poorest state in the union. Not only was I reared on a tobacco farm in this area but I watched this area from childhood, covered every part of it, 8 years, working my way, in the summers, through universities. More homes without inside plumbing, more despair than any other place on earth, until Yankees found the coastline, Yankees found the cheap labor, as Dr. Frank P. Graham, famed president of UNC-CH said “eastern NC was ready for development, enlightenment.” Eastern NC was kept in it's enslavement by the white supremacist entrenched, democrat party. One day, in Raleigh, sitting with the late governor, Terry Sanford and the late representative L.C. Fountain, (Tarboro) I realized the shackles. They agreed that North Carolina would always vote solid democrat as long as the poor whites and blacks in eastern NC danced to their tune. The democrats could depend on the cotton mill workers, tenant farmers, blacks, Jews, Baptists, getting in line and staying in line for the democrat party. And so it has been my entire lifetime and past 140 years. I blame the Baptist and evangelicals of eastern North Carolina more than anyone else. They knew what was going on, the enslavement of people who they claimed to love. Of course, everyone was not in poverty. There were always those houses on the hill, homes of legislators, bankers, corporate owners, doctors and lawyers who lived the elitist life in their country clubs and mainline (big “I” little “u”) churches and golf clubs.

Yesterday, in spite of president Lindon Johnson's war on poverty startling in 1964, the war on drugs, the war on terrorism, there is more poverty in America now than ever before forty seven million, 15.5 percent of the population, one of each six families. Shameless, democrat rule in Congress and most states. Shameless, blacks and Mexicans 27 percent unemployed still supporting anti Christ Obama. Shameless, one war after another with all the talk on forced heath care, veterans at the end of the line.

Many will remember Georgia's US senator, Herman Talmage. His father, Georgia's most famous politician and governor, “old Gene” said one time, when politicking at a cross roads. “The people of Georgia have only three friends, ME, Jesus Christ and Sears & Roebuck”. The poor people of America have little left except their faith in God and faith in the Constitution or what is left of the Constitution.

Abandonment

When this writer arrived at Port Vila, New Hebrides... south pacific islands, I could not help but think of Dr. Samuel Johnson's book on the New Hebrides Islands. (Hebrides, an area of Scotland) More important, I remembered early missionaries John Paton and John Williams.

These men described the uncivilized cannibalism of the natives. John Paton actually slept on his wife's grave to keep the cannibal natives from digging her up. Today, a modern hotel, beautiful Christian people, one would never know that at one time these people of the New Hebrides were completely uncivilized. Today, western civilization, particularly America, we have abandoned our senses returning to a perverse person hood.

Even in my lifetime, after 5000 years of civilized behavior we would never have believed that Americans and particularly churches in America would recognize same sex marriage. In the most rampant, decadent, pagan-ancient civilization where homosexuality was practiced there was no such thing as same sex marriage. The most heathen homosexuals recognize the importance of the institution of marriage between male and female. ABANDONMENT of family always leads to perversity.

We do not expect modernistic, socialistic denominations such as the Episcopal and Lutheran who have put lesbian and gay bishops and pastors in the pulpit to join in the fight against perversion but, it is sickening indeed to find the largest non-Catholic denomination, the baptists with an “air” of political correctness running from this fight. As with the republicans in New York state who voted to recognize “same sex marriage”, they always come up with one word - “fair” They want to be so fair with the gays, lesbians, pedophiles, prostitutes of politics, FAIR TO SIN. They always come up with the same mantra, “God loves the sinner not the sin”, an ABANDONMENT of the Gospel. If there is one thing in history, theology, biology on which every mind should agree “one flesh” comes about with the child of a man and woman. Every child is precious not only from conception but from the very mind of God.

Rhinos “Republicans in name only”, members of the NRC (National Republican Committee) tell Christian republicans to concentrate on the economy, to leave off the social issues. I want the Rhinos, the NRC, to know that our nation is financially bankrupt because our nation is morally bankrupt. The same applies to the matter of abortion. We cannot kill thousands of babies each day with impunity... not a Christian nation... America is not Godless-China.

On my first trip to communist China, after the Nixon reopening in 1973 (I was on the first plane of Dr's and lawyers who went over for a visit after the reopening after Nixon) I was told about the one child policy, that couples preferred a boy baby. The creeks and swamps were full of drowned girl babies. God does not have a timetable, calendar, wristwatch but, He will have his way with China. From 1799 – 1892, even the supreme court of America declared this a Christian nation. America, in the 20^th century abandoned Christianity. Since 1973, an infamous court decision, 53 million babies have been killed in the holocaust of abortion and , some think we will escape the wrath of God. The spineless politician, the spineless preacher, have a dire understanding of what has happened to past civilizations, even empires, who have “spit in the face” of the Sovereign God of the universe.

Today, we abandon God on our road to socialism led by an anti-Christ President. Democrats have become Marxists, republicans “dizzy” socialists. Republicans provide cover for Obama, hold his coat while he is in the bathroom. Evangelical Christians are so afraid of being called racist... you can call baptists – evangelicals – fundamentalists, hypocrites, modernists, anything but racist. Any thinking American able to do research, two brain cells still functioning know that Obama is an impostor and a liar. Patriotism, free enterprise, love of country flows in the veins of a Christians who know the history of this blessed nation. Every time this totally blind, 100% disabled, service connected, medical officer and veteran of the Korean conflict thinks about his hard-working, god-fearing, tax-paying parents, grandparents, ancestry all of the way back to their landing on the shores of this nation, I cannot help but think that today's politicians, pastors have abandoned their senses.

Don't leave national repentance up to Rick Warren, Bennie Henn, Joel Ostein they have been bought off by their love of the world, flesh, devil.

My first air rifle, small shot, I was so anxious to shoot something. I saw a bird near the ground. After I shot the bird, I found her nest with two baby birds in the nest... waiting for the return of their mother.. now dead. This experience, early in life, cured me as a “wild game hunter” rather, then until now, my love for life and the giver of life whether an innocent bird or innocent baby... way... truth... life (John 14:6)

Poor House

The dime (10 cents) is not considered very much money anymore but Bing Crosby made one song very popular “Buddy can you spare a dime.”

My life revolves around the radio, I listen to and participate in radio talk shows around the nation.

I keep hearing the phrase, “I want my country back”! Which country are you talking about? The country of John Adams an Thomas Jefferson is gone. The country of Harry Truman and Dwight Eisenhower is gone. The prosperity and protection of your country is gone.

The military-industrial entanglements of one war after another, since the Great Depression, is the only economical means that has kept this country afloat. It took WWII to bring America out of the Great Depression.

During this “Great Recession” which it is now called by the communist, secular, state-controlled news media, you young people just think things are bad. You have no idea how bad things can get. During the Great Depression, population of the country 1/2 of what it is now. 90% of the population lived on farms only 10% lived in cities. In the countryside, people could grow some food, pick wild berries, hunt for wildlife in the woods yet, nine million people died of starvation.

Today's “baby boomer” generation (those born after WWII) have never seen a county home, poor house. During the Great Depression each county had such a place... usually on the outskirts of the county seat, a large county owned building where the poor of the community could have shelter. These old people had absolutely nothing. The county home housed, clothed and fed them. The old men wore bibbed overalls. The old women, plain figured dresses with aprons if able to work, the women would help with the food and the men with the yard. Otherwise , they mostly sat in rocking chairs on porches... waiting to die a burial expense for the county.

Most of today's baby bloomers, young people have never seen a cheap casket.

The nation of Japan has the same problem as America, everyone wanting something for nothing, you spending your money on your wants, and the state spending your tax money for your needs. Japan has a large population of old people depending on the socialism of the state. As in America, their social security, health-care, housing broke.

In the cheap nations of the Philippines, Malaysia, Thailand the Japanese government is building Japanese poor houses... communes to house, clothe, and feed their old people.

Washington DC, is the most prosperous place in America. The bureaucrats, lobbyists, politicians are wining and dining one another. My friends in government tell me that it is just one cocktail party after another. They do not care that you have paid your FICA taxes your entire working life. Like midnight basketball, lock box, “change” all just so much talk, fraud, corruption. Your frugal living, coupon clipping, conservatism has not slackened the junkets of congress the many vacations of the presidential family. The high rollers of Wall St. or “K” street.

Abraham, (name means, father of a multitude) first Jew, sitting on the mountain at Zoar (Genesis 13:10 and 14:2) watched the destruction of Sodom and Gomorrah, cities of the plain chosen by Lot, chosen because of their prosperity, destroyed by God for their decadence. If God allows Washington continued prosperity then he will apologize to Sodom and Gomorrah.

There was a large memorial for the tenth anniversary of 911 in spite of the many questions concerning this tragedy including the falling of building seven. (skyscraper which fell on its own hours after the two which planes hit.)

There are many questions about Oklahoma City, inaccuracies about the Murrow Building and president Clinton riding high on that tragedy. Some have said that Obama must have an Oklahoma City-type tragedy. The very idea that America is involved in tragedy is an abomination to everything we hold dear but, 92% of all Americans believe that president Clinton was killed by his own government. Th e burning alive of women and children at WACO, TX is just one example of our decadence. What about Iraq, Libya, Pakistan, Afghanistan. This week, seventy seven Americans injured in that war.

The truth is our only salvation. A wealthy man invited hundreds of friends to a lavish party... beautiful home, lavish food, drinks, entertainment, he invited one of America's greatest actors, greatest voices, to read great pieces if literature... mostly Shakespeare. After each reading, wild applause. Then he said, “I will recite your favorites if I know them” He recited Lincoln's Gettysburg address. One of the host's favorite guests, an old white-haired Catholic priest with Roman collar stood and asked if he would recite the 23^rd Psalm. He said “father I will if you will recite it after me.” The priest hesitated amid such glamor but then agreed. After the actor recited the familiar 23^rd psalm he said “father now it is your turn.” The priest did so in a much lower sweeter voice. No one clapped, all gasped. The actor said “you heard from me a trained paid actor, then you heard from the shepherd himself.” You must experience a POOR HOUSE in order to understand a POOR HOUSE.

Searching

The greatest question of my life, why Christianity does not satisfy? I am convinced that in the DNA, cell structure, of every human being chosen by God, there is a DNA marker.

IF you are a Holy spirit-filled child of God, it should be so evident not only to you, but to everyone with whom you come in contact.

On one of my three trips to communist China following the reopening, I was At Xian... spectacular tourist attraction where Em porers entire army of porcelain figures are slowly being recovered from the earth.

Three Chinese men, and they all look the same, because all Chinese are dressed the same, walked up to me and said, “I believe you are Christian.” I said “yes” and they said “we are Christian.” I shook their hands, gave each one of my cards, and wished them well. My nosy communist guide said to me, “What did those men want?” I said, “they wanted to practice their English.”

In my long life, WHY, if one has a divine nature living within, the very spirit of God living within, why is It necessary to involve oneself with other entanglements. I have known grown men, free masons, much more interested in their masonic identity that their Christian identity... their handshakes, their pens, their rings, same as in college with “Fraternity brothers”. My last church membership, a 3000 member church, Wednesday prayer meeting, maybe 30 people, and it was necessary to serve lunch. Same church, same people, women's bridge parties, men's golfing parties, the men's bible class went to Las Vegas each year for an outing.

On the plantations, the slaves had a language between themselves which the master could not understand. This was their connection. Their consolation, their “oneness”. I believe there is a new tribalism in today's world... young people in bars, elitists in country clubs. Civic and fraternal clubs where members are carefully selected.

When you possess the Holy spirit of Jesus Christ, you possess a divine intelligence, a divine nature. An intelligence which will guide you in food, words, actions. God will not allow you to put poisons in your body, aspartame, nicotine, addictive substances. Aspartame, synthetic sweeteners, more addictive than cigarettes, the most dangerous poison you can put into your body. Your body is a temple not a dumpster, your divine nature will not permit pornography, cursing, idol worship, taking God's name in vain. The ancients, at worship, prostrated themselves on the ground. Praise, Holiness, was real to them.

If you have not been considered “nutty”, if you are not considered “different” in your own family then there is something wrong with your faith, your religion. A recent poll, 82% of all people say they believe in God... so does the devil. God has a 52% approval record, a perfect track record. The world, flesh, devil, wants to ensnare you with a social gospel. After all, does not everyone go to heaven when they die, regardless of how they lived on earth? Most unsaved, I know, cannot stand real Christians on earth but think that they will endure them throughout eternity. God does not allow sin in heaven.

Just as blacks, pagans, fraternal people, have a special language, so do gays. Language in a gay night club is completely different. Females love gay men because they are good dancers, unlike real men who are usually very poor dancers. Females like gay hairdressers, interior decorators, clothing designers because they are so sensitive. These women are called “Fag-Hags”. Don't tell me that people pulling and prodding, SEARCHING for something else are Christian not when the search is over for those who have the satisfying experience of salvation from a living God, Creator of the universe in their very being.

The early Christians, endowed by their Creator with newness of life would identify one another by drawing a fish on the ground... just two curved lines. It was called the “way”. Christ told us that He is the way, the truth, the life (John 14:6)

The communist, secular, state-controlled news media love chatter, want you thinking like them. There is usually a daily chatter about something, 911, Qaddafi, economy, Obama reading the Bible, etc. They do not realize that the real Christian, spirit-filled child of God has conquered the world, the flesh the devil. They know the truth and want others to know the truth, endowed by their creator with a separated way of life. We are not popular, politically correct ,usually estranged from family.

IF the millions of Christians around the world had stopped SEARCHING for the “things” of the world and were spending their spirit-filled lives and days showing Christianity, by prayer and testimony the world would be a different place. The world has changed the church instead of the church changing the world. Christians have forgotten what they are.

Emotinal Filters

Emotional Filters

One-third of our lives is spent with our eyes closed. Sleep is a perfectly natural part of living and, when we sleep, most of us dream. I have been convinced for a very long time that there is not enough significance paid to dreams. Scriptually, dreams were a large part of the biblical life. Have you ever considered how different history would be if Joseph, one of Jacob's 12 sons, had not been a dreamer? Now, Joseph, whose preminance in the old testament cannot be denied, a type of Jesus, just as Isaac, Abraham's son, was a type of Jesus, talked about his dreams. Son of Rachel, the wife who Jacob loved, coat of many colors, despised by his brothers because of his father's favoritism, was sold by his brothers into slavery (the Twelve Tribes of Israel). I believe that the iron shackles which bound him in the slave caravan actually immuned him to a life as God's chosen. He could see the lights of Hebron as the caravan proceeded toward Egypt. We have no record of Joseph being a cry baby, lamenting the jealous-despicable brothers. Living by faith refusing Potiphar's wife (Genesis 36-37), his consistent “character” even after dreams and his elevation as ruler of Egypt. Remember, he dreamed about years of famine and years of plenty. Which brought Judaism into Egypt, their bondage. The passover, observed until this very day, the history of Judaism and the Holy Land, persisting until this very day.

The flight into Egypt after Herod's vindictive attempt to kill all male children, was due to a dream. Jesus, as a baby, probably saw the great pyramid at Giza.

Nostradamus dreamed about the future. Edgar Casey dreamed about the future. Abraham Lincoln dreamed about his own death. Very few people will discuss their dreams. This is truly a tragedy because just as Jeane Dixon predicted the assassination of John F. Kennedy, may have made predictions. Most of us are considered nuts if we even talk about such. For instance, in a dream, I have seen the destruction of Washington, DC, all those monuments, the capital on the ground.

Long ago, I wrote that if the US Federal Government had one iota of intelligence it would have distributed it's federal buildings to other areas of the country rather than to have everything centered in one place. Would it not make sense to have the Defense Department isolated from Washington, DC? Why is it necessary to have the FCC, FTC, IRS, federal courts (supreme and appellate), the judicial departments, FDA, FTA, all these departments crowded into one District of Columbia...a prime target for terrorism.

Most Americans, tranquilized and hypnotized by a state controlled news media have become enslaved to political correctness afraid to say anything, anywhere, anytime. Those who think clearly are considered “smoking something”. Thoughts of beauty have always involved the thoughts of beauty after this life. Thoughts and actions of hatred, ugliness are the thoughts those hell bound. In my experience, whether terrorists, politicians, power brokers, even relatives and friends, hell bent on earth, means hell bound later. The most pessimistic, antagonistic people I have known do not realize that they have accepted the enslavement of control. God's greatest gift to man is freewill. Everything involving faith and grace is free. Everything involving hatred and control, the totalitarianism of gutless communism enslavement.

We have lost the war on illegal drugs. The war with prescription drugs is just beginning. Every prescription drug has at least 100 side effects, many have as many as 500 side effects. You do not find drug stores in Islamic countries. So toxic our environment, so little nutrition in our food. Fifty percent of all Americans take prescriptions for anxiety or stress. Many have only drug induced sleep.

There is no reason for any Christian to take an antidepressant. The Christian faith is the most stress free way of life. Christianity is not something just to talk about, like Conservatism. The real Conservative is conservative in everything. The real Christian is Christan in everything. It must be real. Real in your food intake, real in your liquid intake, real in your work (there is nothing but honor in labor regardless of the type labor), real in exercise. I will assure you upon the authority of God's word, that if you live the real Christian life you will have few sicknesses, few stresses, few sleepless nights, real dreams, emotional filters.

Mind altering drugs have over 500 side effects. Most American human bodies are starving to death from lack of nutrition (junk foods, processed foods, liquid, artificial, sweetened poison). Food as given to us by God, plain water (not water with a toxicity of fluorides and chlorides), daily exercise, the wholesomeness of social groups – interchange with other human beings, such as church, will give you the health you need, the health that drugs and money cannot supply.

Homecoming

After the war, before my disability took over, I did practice for a while, a large wonderful practice with many wonderful patients. I considered my patients as friends. Visiting me was an experience, not a treatment. A professional gets into trouble when he treats a patient or client subjectively rather than objectively. You always keep what is best for the patient in mind. Early, a retired school teacher came to me wanting contact lenses. In the early history of contact lenses, unlike today's, the adjustment was difficult. Of course, young teenage girls wearing real thick minus lenses (a lens correction for near sightedness) would have worn thumb tacks in their eyes to get rid of those awful glasses. This teacher, around age 60, an articulate, attractive woman said, “I'm going to my college reunion. The first time I have ever been to a class reunion. I don't want to look like those old classmates with bifocals and old ladies frames. I want my classmates to remember me as pretty as I was when I was in school.”

I only went to one class reunion, long after graduation, after my military service. I had some eyesight, enough to see that the young men I was in school with were now fat, wrinkled, graying old men. I thought to myself, I'm the only one still young and good looking.

I entered the university of Chapel Hill in the fall of 1948. I was probably the greenest student to ever enter the university. I do not believe Hinton James, the first student of UNC-CH, who walked from my city on the coast all the way there, was any more inappropriate for university matriculation than was I.

Even though my great grandmother was reared at Chapel Hill, I had never been to the town or campus. My father drove me up in the family Chevrolet...he had never been to Chapel Hill either. Of course I had read everything about the campus, knew the dorm to which I had been assigned. My clothes, books, etc, where in an old trunk of my mother's. My father was the only member of his family who had not attended college and I believe he always resented that.

My mother had only a 6^th grade education. Although we had the genes, colonial families (founders of Morristown, NJ – Lucas – Pittman) my folks were just hard working, God fearing, tax paying, poor farm people. If I had been taking my son to college for the first time, I would have been talking about college activities, both I and his mother with doctorates.

Poverty is the one social disease from which you never recover. Until the day you die, you always recognize the difference in the haves and the have nots and, believe me, the haves never let you forget that they are the elitest.

Here I was, on the premiere men's elitest campus in the state. The oldest state supported university. “Incubator” for all the state's elite families, future legislators, doctors, lawyers, bankers and judges. Only a few female graduate students attended Chapel Hill at that time. It was a bastion of male superiority and eliteness. Young men from the state's wealthiest families, largest high schools, most prestigious prep schools. They talked above me and down to me. I was not one of them.

With an abiding faith, desire for success and ability to study, I endured and graduated...working my way through entirely. There were no government grants, no largess from philanthropists. It was a matter of accomplishment or go home.

The most sickening matter, and it still irritates me to this day, the university accommodated students from the state's power brokers (sons of legislators, judiciary, moneyed families). There were those assigned by administration to make sure the sons of the powerful had no problems at the university. The campus was a bullwork of liberality even then. These liberal professors did not believe enough in their liberality to resent this treatment of the powerful compared to the poor students. The liberal professors were not bothered by the fact that the state's bright, smart black students could not even put their foot in a university classroom. To this day, I am appalled that white, liberal Democrats who have by hook and crook controlled politics and life in eastern North Carolina did not allow minorities to put their foot in the ocean at white beaches. The Jewish people, by money and attendance supporting the university, voting almost 99% Democrat, giving out the empathy of love for minorities, maintained beautiful beach houses on these lily white beaches.

I will never forget the fact, and it is a fact, that working my way through the university, attempting to keep up with the better prepared, I lived on $1 a day, .25 for breakfast, .25 for lunch and .50 for supper. Sitting on a stone fence, back of Wilson Library, I had the epiphany of my life, which to this day I remember as vividly as then. I had said to God, as did Job...”even if You kill me I will trust You.” God revealed to me that in the library where I worked (medical school) change had fallen from pockets into the stuffed chairs. I retrieved enough change to eat for a while until I got my next paycheck.

Now, I get invitations to homecomings, there and at the other university, where I also had a hard time and worked my way through. By any barometer or measure of success, in spite of military blindness, I have enjoyed enough success to give much money as a philanthropist. I have traveled the world. A testimony to Christianity. I am convinced that at one of these homecomings, I would still be treated just as I was as a student by the elitest classmates who, because of their connections, went on to greatness in other areas. God has assured me and the others of you who have endured the shame of the independent life, that He is the scorekeeper. We take joy in that homecoming.